jen has a new xanga.

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go love me.

i remember when i used to write on here every day. but no more, ha.

this morning i woke up and like ten minutes after i woke up i started crying. i just cried and cried for no reason. it took like an hour for it to stop. so i didn’t go to school. i stayed home and went back to bed.

but going back to bed might have been a mistake, since i had a really…gross…dream. there was a lot of blood and murderers. and there were a lot of hills.

i don’t know. this was pointless.

//edit:
it’s time for something new.
a new xanga, to be specific.
i’m going to go make one. 

so i’m thinking about making a new xanga.
again. but i don’t know if i will…

i’m bad at life. i don’t go to school enough. and… i’m having self-esteem problems right now. but really, when am i not having self-esteem issues?

i want to do something but i have nothing to do.
story of my life, right?

shittt. i don’t like being bored.

wellwellwell.

christina came over today after school and we watched life on the murder scene. :] it’s fantasticcc, really. we talked to amanda too.

so tomorrow i think i’m going to this thing downtown called second saturday. it’s an art thing where a bunch of the art museums are open late on the second saturday of every month and you just go and walk around to all of them. christina’s probably going too. should be fun, right? right.

so i really want to go shopping. i want to spend money. too bad i don’t have any money, ha.

jerseyyy is adorableee. <3

and that’s all i know. :]

BYELOVERS.
<3jen

So I’ve been working quite diligently on a new playlist. It should hopefully be up tomorrow or Wednesday.

Angela and Christina have both decided that they want industrials too, ha. I’m a trendsetter. ;]

I bought tickets for Warped Tour today. :] I can’t wait, seriously. It’s like the highlight of my summer. Except this summer I get my permit, rawr.

I should go do homework. I have a million things to do. : Oh well, ha.

We have five weeks of school left. I wish it was summerrrr.

Well. I should go.
Au revoir, les chéris.
<3jen

//Edit:
New playlist, ohmy. :]

So Jersey is adorable. :] He was sleeping on the back of my neck today for about an hour. I lovelovelove him.

I went to the movies today with mom. We saw The Sentinel, and it was pretty damn good.

I’m rather fond of AFI’s new song. And I’m rather excited for their new CD, which they’ve taken entirely too long to put out.

I went shopping with my dad today for Mother’s Day and I ended up spending about $50 on myself in Bath & Body Works. But I did get stuff for my mom too, so it’s okay.

We got a new chair for the computer. The other one was like. Lopsided. Weird. So this one is pretty nice.

ANYWAYS, I’m rambling.

Off I go. :]
Bye, lovers.
<3jen

//Edit:
For Lina.

The top one, that’s an industrial. :]

So I didn’t get my lip pierced. Mom and I went to Sub-Q yesterday to get it done but the guy said something about it being bad for braces so mom wouldn’t let me get it. But I got an industrial instead, so it’s okay. :] It just hurts now.

I went to Arts Alive! yesterday at school and I got an honorable mention on my charcoal drawing and I didn’t expect to get anything so. It was nice. :]

But today I didn’t go to school because I was tired. Whatever, I haven’t missed school in a long time.

Ohh, I saw my school counselor the other day to ask her about whether or not Mme O was going to be teaching at my school next year and she’s not. I’m so happy. :] So I’m retaking French 2 and then I’ll take French 3 & 4 when I’m a senior.

In other news, I love Bloc Party.

And that’s all I have to say.

Either Thursday or Saturday.
That is when I will have my lip pierced.

In other news, Button is beautifulll. :]
And so is Jersey. :]

Mom said there’s someone from Elk Grove on Supernanny tonight, haha. I can’t believe she actually watches that show. :

So on Thursday I had a trig quiz.
On Friday I had a chemistry test.
Today I had a trig test.
Tomorrow I have a chemistry midsession.
That sucks.

I have to go away now.
Bye.

Sooo.

Friday was super fun. My hair is black now. :] And I got a manicure too. Amanda, Christina, and I went to Chili’s after the salon. We had good food and gossiped, haha. And Chili’s is right across the street from Border’s so we went there too. I got Taking Back Sunday’s new CD. :] I loveee it, for seriously. So Amanda and Christina came back here for a little while after all that. Christina left around 10 and Amanda left at like 11:30.

Yesterday I went to the movies with Amanda and Jerry. We saw Silent Hill. It wasn’t scary. It was just weird and kind of gross at times. But I liked it.

I’ve been cleaning my garage like crazy. I still have to do some more work on it before I can get my lip pierced. That’s quite a bit of motivation.

Cella called me about an hour ago from Jenn’s cell phone and told me that Jenn needed a ride home because she was drunk and she threw up all over the place. I told her I couldn’t give her one. Because really, I couldn’t, but even if I could, I don’t think I would. It’s Jenn’s choice to go steal alcohol and get shitfaced every weekend, and I don’t want to be the person who has to save her ass all the time. I’ve been really..disappointed in Jenn lately. With the alcohol, first of all. But she also seems to think that she’s a lot happier than I am and that she can give me advice about depression and self-injury and things like that. But really, I think if you go out every single weekend and like twice during the week and get drunk, you can’t be the happiest person in the world either. But hey, that’s just me.

I should go do something productive.
But I probably won’t, ha.

Bye, lovers.
<3jen

NFAM;LDNMKASLD,ASL;S.

I am sick. It sucks.
Congested + Sore throat + Headache = Jen.
Gross.

I’m not getting my lip pierced this weekend. See, the thing is, I have to clean the garage before I can get it done and I tried to start today but I couldn’t handle all the dust, what with my illness and everything, ha. So [hopefully] next weekend.

But I’m still going out with Christina and Amanda tomorrow. So that’ll be good.

Testing is overrr. Today felt so much like a Friday because it was a minimum day.

The weather has been beautiful for the last few days. And I don’t mean beautiful by my standards, where it’s gray and raining with thunderstorms, I mean it’s been bright blue skies and green grass and 85°. It’s lovely. If I can’t have rain, I want this. Except 75° would be better, but whatever. Le sigh. It’s officially SPRING, I guess.

So remember how I said I was listening to HIM a lot? Now I’ve been listening to Bayside a lot. :]

I have to go eat and then take Jersey to the vettt. He has to get his eight week old shots. Adorable.

Au revoir.
<3jen