mom let me stay home from school today because i didn't want to get up. but she says i have to go to school every day in march because of today. and this is the fifth time in three weeks i've stayed home. pft.

i want it to be the twenty-first right now. seriously.

it was so stormy yesterday, it was fabulous. it was rainy and windy all night. this morning when i woke up it was rainy and there was thunder and it was fantastic. it actually hailed for a few minutes too. crazy. but now the sky is semi-blue. not so good.

i am not looking forward to spring. i just want to skip to summer. except for spring break, i'm looking forward to that.

well. i don't know, i just thought it should update.

i'm off.
<3jen

this morning i woke up at nine because some stupid salesperson called. i yelled at them for waking me up.

i had an appointment with my therapist today that she asked my father, my mother, and me all to attend. so we did, and my father, of course, started being extremely defensive as soon as anything negative was said about him. i honestly cannot stand him. him and his faux wisdom, the shit he just makes up off the top of his head and then says like it's some philosophical breakthrough. well. it doesn't matter now, i guess. there's no point getting upset over it now.

so after that, i went and got my hair done with christina. it's so short, i can't believe it. but i like it.

[picture = stretching page = gone.]

it's so soft right now. i bought biosilk from the salon too, and it smells amazing.

i've been listening to Mad World all night. i love this song.

well. i'm off to the magical world that is myspace.

bye, loves.
<3jen

i am so completely, totally, amazingly happy right now.

you have no idea.

okay, last night, i dreamed that mcr was at my birthday party. i had a very long conversation with gerard about vampires, aha. and then frank and i talked about traveling. everyone who was actually at my birthday party was there too. mikey brought his girlfriend with him to the party and jenn said she looked like a whore. wow, haha. it was an awesome dream.

well. i went back to school today. i really don't like school except for first period. it was hard...to get through the day...but i managed it. =

i should go.

mom told my father today that i'm gonna be living with her. he's furious. he's such an asshole, it's unbelievable.

button has decided that the counter is her own personal domain. so today she was wandering along it and she managed to knock five candles off and scare herself, poor baby.

i skipped school today. i got up and got completely ready to go and then i decided that i just couldn't face it. mom found out about it, but she wasn't actually mad.

well. miami ink is on in like two minutes and i'll die if i miss it, so off i go.

bye, loves.
<3jen

i'm talking to amanda.
it makes me happy. i haven't talked to her in forever and i wasn't sure if she liked me anymore...but she does.

i went to my therapist yesterday and she said she thinks i should live with my mom full time. she says she thinks we should change it with the court so my mom has custody of me. so i've been researching about family court and custody laws. my dad doesn't know about any of this yet because she just told us yesterday and that was his birthday...and it would be really mean to tell someone something like that on their birthday. : but it's weird...to think that soon-ish i'll be living with my mom. it's actually gonna happen. crazy.

i'm off.
bye, loves.
<3jen

today. i was fine. until i went to school. i went to first period and i was so depressed. i couldn't do any work. i called my dad and he called the office and i got an early dismissal. so i've been home all day doing nothing. feeling sorry for myself.

i'm sick of this.
i'm sick of school and not being happy and always being sad and not being able to stop and lying to myself and everyone else and caring and feeling and loving...
i'm sick of life....
and i'm terrified.

aren't those gorgeous?
i took those today at 5:56. and by 6:10 the sky was not pretty like that at all.
it's so amazing how fifteen minutes can make that much of a difference.

i got a new yahoo screen name. and a new email.
shotgunxxsinner.
add me/im me, kthx.

k so for my birthday, i got a camera. it's so awesome. it's exactly the one i wanted too, and i happen to know that it was $250. wow. ah, i love it. we took like 200 pictures at my party, haha. fun.

and my party was really fun too. matt, angela, jeff, christina, and i were laying on my driveway for about thirty minutes just staring at the moon. we watched movies and listened to music and talked and laughed and ate like whoa, ha. there was cheesecake. it was fantastic.

but now, my birthday is over, so my father is back to being an asshole. well really, he was being an ass yesterday too from the moment i got home. i can't stand him. :

course selection is on tuesday. i think i'm gonna do us history, english 11, art 3, honors art, photo 1, photo 2, japanese 1, and either computer tech or physics. i was gonna do art 3, honors art, and ap art all next year, but i want to save something for my senior year, otherwise it'll be really boring. and i really hope i get into photography. it's REALLY hard to get into. almost everyone wants to take photo. yeah.

my father's birthday is on saturday. i haven't gotten him anything.

i love three day weekends. especially when we have two of them in a row.

i'm done, i suppose.

bye, loves.
<3jen

tomorrow
is
my
BIRTHDAY.

it's gonna be somuchfun. <3