Sooo.

Friday was super fun. My hair is black now. :] And I got a manicure too. Amanda, Christina, and I went to Chili's after the salon. We had good food and gossiped, haha. And Chili's is right across the street from Border's so we went there too. I got Taking Back Sunday's new CD. :] I loveee it, for seriously. So Amanda and Christina came back here for a little while after all that. Christina left around 10 and Amanda left at like 11:30.

Yesterday I went to the movies with Amanda and Jerry. We saw Silent Hill. It wasn't scary. It was just weird and kind of gross at times. But I liked it.

I've been cleaning my garage like crazy. I still have to do some more work on it before I can get my lip pierced. That's quite a bit of motivation.

Cella called me about an hour ago from Jenn's cell phone and told me that Jenn needed a ride home because she was drunk and she threw up all over the place. I told her I couldn't give her one. Because really, I couldn't, but even if I could, I don't think I would. It's Jenn's choice to go steal alcohol and get shitfaced every weekend, and I don't want to be the person who has to save her ass all the time. I've been really..disappointed in Jenn lately. With the alcohol, first of all. But she also seems to think that she's a lot happier than I am and that she can give me advice about depression and self-injury and things like that. But really, I think if you go out every single weekend and like twice during the week and get drunk, you can't be the happiest person in the world either. But hey, that's just me.

I should go do something productive.
But I probably won't, ha.

Bye, lovers.
<3jen

NFAM;LDNMKASLD,ASL;S.

I am sick. It sucks.
Congested + Sore throat + Headache = Jen.
Gross.

I'm not getting my lip pierced this weekend. See, the thing is, I have to clean the garage before I can get it done and I tried to start today but I couldn't handle all the dust, what with my illness and everything, ha. So [hopefully] next weekend.

But I'm still going out with Christina and Amanda tomorrow. So that'll be good.

Testing is overrr. Today felt so much like a Friday because it was a minimum day.

The weather has been beautiful for the last few days. And I don't mean beautiful by my standards, where it's gray and raining with thunderstorms, I mean it's been bright blue skies and green grass and 85°. It's lovely. If I can't have rain, I want this. Except 75° would be better, but whatever. Le sigh. It's officially SPRING, I guess.

So remember how I said I was listening to HIM a lot? Now I've been listening to Bayside a lot. :]

I have to go eat and then take Jersey to the vettt. He has to get his eight week old shots. Adorable.

Au revoir.
<3jen

Tomorrow is the Day of Silence. I have to be at school at 8:15 to go to a GSA meeting and get some stuff. Then I guess after school I'll go to the little "breaking the silence" thingy.

So there is a small possibility that I will be getting my lip pierced this weekend, instead of months from now. And if I can't get it this weekend, I'll probably get it next weekend. This is super exciting, haha.

Christina came over today after school and said Jersey is adorable. :] We watched the Texas Chainsaw Massacre and ate pizza, haha. It was fun.

On Friday I'm dying my hair blackkk. I'm super excited. Amanda and Christina are going with me and I think afterwards we're going out to eat somewhere. Then they're coming back here for a while. Fun stuff.

I have Saturday School this weekenddd. I would really like to have just one weekend where I can sleep in both days for as long as I want. This'll be like the third weekend in a row where I have to get up early for stuff. Psh.

I've been listening to HIM a lot lately. I don't know why, I think I've just remembered how much I love them.

The last day of the CST is on Thursday. I kind of don't want testing to end this year. I like having minimum days every other day and the tests are really easy.

Well. This was a super long entry, wasn't it?
I think I'll go. :]
<3jen

I'm getting my lip pierced. :] I'm not sure when, because it's part of a deal I made with my dad. It'll probably be a couple months. But still, I'm super excited. :]

//Edit:
I'm like. IN LOVE with MakeDamnSure.
Louder Now came out today.
I want itttt. I should order it from Amazon or someplace.
Yeah. I think I will. Later.

MySpace is being a bitch. I seriously hate MySpace sometimes.

I went to Matt's house after school today. He invited me and Jenn basically invited herself and Cella and her boyfriend came over because Jenn came over. He didn't even want them there, but he let them stay for a few hours before he kicked them out, ha. We had vodka & cranberry juice. Cella had like one shot and she was drunk. So. We watched Hostel. And it was the worst movie ever made. It was like, EUROPE SEXSEXSEXSEXSEXSEXSEX DRUGSDRUGS SEXSEXSEX DRUGS SEX VIOLENCEVIOLENCEVIOLENCE TORTURE MURDERMURDER RUNNING TRAINS REVENGE. Stupid. Matt and I watched Zoolander after Matt kicked Jenn, Cella, and her boyfriend out too. It's like the weirdest movie ever.

I should go to bed early. But I'm not going to.

Away I go.
<3jen

PS: It's 11:11, make a wish. :]

So. Today I didn't go to school because I couldn't face getting out of bed. I cried for an hour after I got up. And...I've done some things I regret, to put it mildly.

Emily called me at like 8:15 and told me that she got my ticket for Pippin. So I called Jenn to make sure that we were going together tomorrow... But I was talking to her and she said that she wasn't going because her boyfriend got in a car accident... His skull is fractured and it shattered his pelvic bone and he's in a coma. The other guy in the car just came out of a coma earlier today. And there's a homeless guy who walks around the streets in Elk Grove and after the car crashed he stole all of their money and stuff from the car. I feel so bad for Jenn... She said tomorrow her and her friends are going to go to the hospital to see if they can get in to see him.

So I guess today was just a bad day all around.

Mikey Way is adorable. But I think matching tattoos are stupid.
[And Frank's still cuter.]

And once again, spring break ends too soon. It was absolute hell to get up at 6:30 this morning, and then as soon as I got to school I had to help Ms. Flohr move some boxes so she wouldn't give me a Saturday school for being late like five times a few weeks ago.

Sooo. I have testing tomorrow and Thursday and next Tuesday and Thursday. It sucks. But at least we get out at 12:30-ish on all of those days.

Jersey is so adorable. Jeff wants to come over and play with him. So do Matt and Angela. And I'm sure Jenn does too. He's quite possibly the most popular kitten ever. :]

I had GSA today and I have it again on Wednesday and I think I have it again on Friday. We're making a mural for some school-wide club display thing. Ours is gonna be awesome though. The display is next Wednesday and next Wednesday happens to be the Day of Silence too, so for our thing we're gonna take pictures of people's faces and then paint their mouths closed with stitches and staples and things on the pictures. We're going to hand out flyers to explain about the poster and Day of Silence. So. I should be busy with that stuff this week.

Shit, it's midnight. I'm gonna go to bed.

Bye, lovers.
<3jen

she is precisely what she always hated,
a million problems with no way to solve them
and too many pills to take in one night.
she's shaking from the chemicals
and spilling words she'll wish she never said.

words_are_bullets

todayyy i'm going to angela's birthday party. she's sixteen tomorrow, ohmy.

it's officially just a regular weekend now. : i wish spring break was longer.

i have like two hours to get ready and my mom's not home to tell me where the eyeliner i bought today is. i lose stuff too much. actually, i think she just got here.

i should go get ready and stuff. au revoir. :]

<3jen