wellll. i guess school today wasn't that bad. idk.

mum says i can't go to taste of chaos this year because it's on a wednesday. wtf. and warped tour is on july 13th this year. that feels like forever away. :

i have to make up my history test tomorrowww. i'm probably gonna get a C highest because it's been so long since i actually did the stuff on the test... whatever.

finals are on thursday and fridaaay...i'm sort of glad to be leaving this term because i'm glad grades start over and i don't have to see Mme O again but...it's still gonna be sad for me to leave all my friends... :

idk. i'm off.
bye, loves.
<3jen

god, i reeeeeeally don't want to go back to school tomorrow. -_- at least i'm almost done with french. i just hope i don't have to take it over again or something because i have an F. because really, i shouldn't have to take it over just because the teacher hates me and won't give me a pass grade.

um. yeah. i don't know. :

i'm off.
bye, loves.
<3jen

//edit:
yay, brokeback mountain won like 4 golden globes. that movie was so good. and so sad. but it deserves to win like 3428 awards. because it's fabulous.

yes.

so um. i guess i'm friends with jessica now. i don't really know. and i really can't talk about it because...you know. yeah.

i got my hair cut and dyed todayyy. it looks super. i was gonna do a darker red but i love this color so it's all okay.

mmm. i'm borrred. this whole weekend has been busy so far and now it's not and it's just like. phnah.

i'm off.
bye, loves.
<3jen

//edit:
i think for my birthday you guys should get me the mcr action figures, kthx.

bonjour, señoras.

haha. franish.

so. i talked to jessica today. i don't know how i feel about her anymore, really.

mum wants me to start thinking about who i'm gonna invite over for my birthday. i can't waitttt.

ooh and today's emily's birthday so happy birthday to her! :) *confetti*

i have nothing to say. other than the fact that i love donnie darko. yeah.

i'm off.
bye, loves.
<3jen

well hello there, darlings.

so i've been fighting with my dad a lot this week. i'm so glad i'm back at my mom's house.

dad got my progress report in the mail today. he was not pleased. according to it, i have two F's, a D-, and a C. but the only reason i have an F in world history is because i haven't made up the last unit test or turned in my notebook yet. so whatever.

but i have a C in english! so exciting. i did well on my persuasive essay and my speech this week too. we got our research papers back yesterday and i got a B. i also got 119/136 on the lord of the flies test, which is completely amazing considering i was on page 28 when we did it.

i've been upset a lot lately. i don't really know why. maybe...no. whatever.

i'm off.
au revoir.
<3jen

prescribed pills to offset the shakes to offset the pills.

i love p!atd.

i know i'm a sophmore and everything and i'm planning ahead like whoa, but i think for my senior project i want to learn to play guitar. totally.

um. i'm in a really weird mood today. this friday is friday the thirteenth. when i was little, i would have been like. so excited. honestly.

i should go. i have to finish my essay and organize my speech and shit.

a bientôt, darlings.
<3jen

scmadklaeka.

i have to go back to school tomorroooow and i really don't want to. i'm gonna stay up late tonight though. because what the hell, i haven't stayed up really late in a while.

i don't know why i'm updating this. i have nothing to say.

i should check my email more often. i have like 23842 unread emails. whatever.

i'm off to finish some stuff.
au revoir.
<3jen

sooo. i don't really have anything to say. i stayed home from school today because i didn't feel good this morning. and i didn't do any of my homework last night and i was really really tired.

my powder smells good. the loose one, not the compact. the compact doesn't smell like anything. yeah.

i love sin city.

i'm off.
bye, loves.
<3jen

i'm tired.
i'm tired of feeling.
i'm tired of thinking.
i'm tired of being awake.
i'm tired of being alive.

i feel stupid again. i've been cutting myself like crazy for the last few days.

i feel...unloved. even though i have absolutely no reason to feel like that. i don't know what's wrong with me.

my dad's supposed to call the insurance company and get me a new therapist. maybe it's a good idea. i don't want to be in therapy. i don't even know that i really want to get better. i don't like relying on this but...i don't know anymore. i don't know anything.

i'm stupid.

i suck at school.

: we had our final test on lord of the flies today in english and i was only on page 28. but it wasn't that bad because we had discussed most of it during class. i just really need to bring up my grade because i think i have like 58% in that class. but it'll be worse now because we had a character essay due today and i completely blew it off. i have to do really well on the next essay and the speeches. :

i bet i have a D now in psych too. i never do my homework. i always forget, idk. i have no idea what i have in world history right now but i bet it's my best grade. i know i have an F in french. i just want to pass everything. that's my goal for this term. :

(or maybe i'm just too stupid for school.)
i bet that's it.

i'm seeing hostel with amanda this weekend.

i want to get my hair cut. not a lot, just maybe an inch or two so it'll behave more. whatever.

i've decided i'm gonna have a birthday party. my birthday is still over a month away, i feel so prepared. amanda even said she'll come.

ooh but today matt told me something about amanda's boyfriend today that i really want to tell her, but i swore i wouldn't say anything. : sndmasldnasjk.

i'm off.
bye, loves.
<3jen